harey us ako ni almost 5 years huna lagyo, still no changes, jhan jhan alchi hudai gairachu ... k bhako hola? is it only me or wat....i dont know wat to do...sabai jana padhera grad huna thalisake ...afu chai still tehi level ma...
pahila pahila nep ma huda ta padhne type kei thye,... ajkal ta exam naaye samma , exam ko rati matra kitab kholine ani sadhai next ramro garula bhandai....yetro yrs bityo , gpa ni ghatdai gai racha .... k bhako hola....
i really want to improve...n also think abt it almost all the tym but cant motivate to help myself study.... m really depressed n frustated sometimes.... dont feel like talkin to my parents, relatives , who really care about me.... but silly me always try to get in touch with those frens ... who dont care abt me...ignore my calls ... or simply lie abt not getting my texts or missed calls.... i really dont want myself to degrade myself.... but i am....why??? 
i want to study n get better grade, but study start garnai garo huncha...always feel hungry... if not ...sleep whole day... wake up whole night.... sign in and out facebook million times....
i dont know y m degrading myself 

 Darpanchaya,

I felt sad reading your post. Brother, I know what you are going through. I have felt very similar emotions also at one point in my life. I am sorry you are going through this. It is very difficult to go through what you are going through. On one hand you are rejected by friends and relatives because you have not got it economically together. On the other hand, without their moral support, you don't have the kind of emotional support that you need...so that you can get it economically together. 

It becomes like the Chicken or the Egg. Without the Chicken there is no egg. And without the egg there is no chicken. It is a real dillema. 

So in your case you don't know if you should work towards getting the chicken or the egg. Right? 

Almost idential story, actually mine is worse than yours including personal life;;, used to get depressed, frustated, exhausted all the time. But guess what? I decied to move from here to a differnent place just to give a try.

I don't know how you interpret it, but there was something on these words that fire a spark inside me. I thought about it for a few days, literaly deeply and now I am re-locating to a differnt place.   These are the words that person told me. 

"गरेन भने कहिले केहि हुँदैन. तपाई तेही नै बसी राख्नु  हुन्छ, next generation आउछ, hang out गर्छ, अनि आफ्नो बाटो लिदै तपाई भन्दा अगाडी जान्छ. फेरी अर्को generation आउछ, तेही गर्छ अनि उ पनि अगाडी जान्छ.  तेस पछी अर्को , अनि अर्को ,अनि अर्को.................. तर तपाई तेही बसी राख्नु हुन्छ, अनि furstation depression दुनिया थरि ले पिरोल्छ !!"

I will be always ( my entire life) greatful for that person for telling me this and now because of it, I am trying to do somthing. I don't know what will happen next, but at least I am trying. 

So now,  to help yourself first you have to HELP YOURSELF FIRST. we can just give suggestions, but can' t make you to do anything. If you don't help yourself first,  nobody can. I don't know whats you up to but if something is hunting you, just let it go....move ahead. Straight your lazy a*** up and start doing something even if you don't feel like doing it . Remember this "NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE  TO DO? DO IT FOR YOURSELF". 

Regarding friends

We humans are come in different versions. .  But there is one common thing in all of us. that is if you talk with somebody they will talk back. If you talk good they will talk good and if you are talk about your problems so do they. But each of us have a tolerance level for everything and if somebody is repeating same thing again and again, we tend to igonre that person. I know this is unfortunate but this what it is . That might be the case for you. If its not, you just didn't pick up the right person to be friends with. And don't worry about that, you make friends. loose some, make some more ,loose a lit bit and make more...This is life going proces... you will be fine will find good friends.

If you manage to read so far, congrats you are already on your way. You are not lazy (otherwise you wouldn't reach so far). Straight yourself up and start doing something right now...My best wishes for you.

 This was the reason I tried to commit suicide a little more than a year ago. Today I am doing much better, I have a great job that I love. My relationships are much better. I can tell you what the solution was for me, if you want to know. 
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