It feels both really good and bad when you fall in love. Cause love is there to make u fell good and when u fall its always going to hurt even if it is in love. I have the bitterest experience of my life and I am going to share it over here….

 

It was the winter of 1998 december, u know when we used to have meen pacahs ko chutti. I used to play cricket with my frens all the day long. There was a house near my house which had been sold a long time ago but new owners were not seen till then. That winter the owners came to live there along with there cute daughter shreya…since we were boys and that girl used to come in the roof everyday to see us play my frens started getting excited and started making noise doing all those funny stuffs to get her attention, I was not that interested…hold on c is no the one un my life. After few days I saw another gal with her who was really beautiful and simple..things went on like that all winter. Both of them were there watching us n we were playing. Shreya sent a note to my best fren Tope saying please don’t harass them and we backed off. Things were going like that when one day we saw them waving me n Tope bye. It was feb 28 1998. We knew that they used to study in Darjeeling so we thought ok let it be… nothing changed and life went on for one more year and here was December 1999.

 

They were there again looking at us playing cricket. Shreya started pursuing my fren tope n there relationship started blooming. They used to talk in phone look at each other from roof send letters and cards.. But never met as both of them were afraid of their parents. My another fren lure started liking another girl. Her name was anjali and was cousion of shreya . we got all our info from their brother who played cricket with our smaller brother. She used to come their every once in a while.Lure took me along side of him to follow that girl .look at her in the roof. He was there doing all those stuffs and I was by the side of him just lost in my self doing stuff. And in February the gals asked for phone number of tope through another fren. But he gave them phone number of lure. And in feb 3 1999 they called fot the first time. All of us were excited what are they gonna tell. Tope was talking to shreya first time so he was excited, lure was also excited to talk with anjali and I was excited to know what will go on. We were talking and when lure started talking with anjali she told him it wasnot him c wanted to talk but it was me. He was disappointed and I was confused why c wanted to talk to me. When I talked to her c said c likes me and confessed her feelings for me.. I did not know what to say so I gave her my home phone number and left. From that night on wards c was calling me regulary. My sisters came to know my mom came to know. They were keeping silent that time. She sent me gift and wished me best of luck for my test exam before slc. She even sent me gift in valentines day . That was first ever valentine gift of my life I rembere that valentine cos shivaratri was also same day. But just after valentines day c left for Darjeeling a few days earlier than shreya. I was feeling kind of lost empty and sad inside but I did not know it was love or sth else. One day tope called me n said he got letter frm them frm Darjeeling. Since it was 1^st april I did not believe it. But it was real so we also started sending them letters since there were no emails readily available at that time. I was waiting eagerly for dec 2000.

 

 

 

 

And December was here but there was no trace of shreya or anjali. We were wondering what went wrong . One day I got call from anjali that c is in her sisters home and shreya is not coming this winter cos she had slc that year. She came to shreyas house and we looked at each other s usual from roof  and talked to eachother through phone. Everyone in my family knew about this and my mon and oldest sister were angry cos they though it was too early for me to get involve in love. I was in my 11 grade. So winter holidays of meen pachas were no more ther. She used to wait for me all day long in the roof and I used to come running frm my college just to have more glimpses of her. Even I used to curse god for making days so shorter in winter cos it was dark by 5.30-6. But her roof and my rrom were facing each other in same level so c was there in roof in those cold nights just looking at me n I was there studying all the time and looking at her every once in a while. then we had not meet each other . One day c called me and asked if we could meet. I was so excited. We met for the first time in 8^th December 2000 more than a year after the relation ship beginning.. and what was the first thing I did u know when I met her.. u wont believe it but I measured my height with her cos c was slim and looked really tall but for my luck c was a bit shorter than me..we talked and walked side by side but none of dared to look eacth other in the face,, and this valentine c called me to meet her again… and I was walking with her at night I met my mom and c asked me to go home..i was so afraid hahahaaa… but c never mentioned about that in home.. I had a kinectic Honda at that time but no licnece.. but even I used to go to meet her at her sistes home which was in patan….and the day was there when c had to leave for the Darjeeling 29^th feb 2000. I had to lie both in college and home to get early leave from the college so that I can go to drop her off in the bus park. I called my cousion brother to take me to her house and to bus park. He agreed and we were following her taxi from patan to gongabu bus park since c had her family members with her…and for my luck c was left alone inside bus for half an hour so I went inside there and talked to  her. I put my shades on so she could not see my misty eyes. And c was facing towards window to hide her tears.. and I said her bye and c told me that c was not coming back next  year as she had her SLC exam. I became really upset to know that I was not going to c her for next two years..I came home lost.. confused sad…n depressed…

If tope and shreya are still in contact, he can get the answer from her.

its what r u feeling right now

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if tope gets any info i know he will call me but still i m getting impatient day by day

Run for the hill man just run. She is playing with your feelings. On top of that tendencies of suicide re? she is nuts.

teroobaau Posted on 06-04-08 3:57 PM     Reply | Notify Admin

ince your name is uncle tom you might have more expereince than me and things you are sayinh might be right. But you don't know how much was i dedicated even the first move was from her side. And inspite of age difference ( she was a year older than me), education difference ( while i was in bachelors she was doing her slc) i never made her feel uncomfortable. Its not like a movie that you fight with a bad guy for her to make her feel you truly love her. I was there to do anything share everything and do to make her feel special as a real life guy would do. Suspicion came later on which turned out to be true. So things you have said does not matches well enough with me. Yah for those girls i might have made some mistake because i really never bothered if they truley loved me or nit..I must have done wrong deed then..I agree with you there..and for still getting in her mind you will get your answer in next part...

I am NOT  convinced that you were there to make her feel special as a real life guy . And later you suspected her and that turned to be true. How come you made her so special that she kept relations with other guys and you don't know. What were you doing while she managed to see other guys while you thought you were the special one of her ..???????

I can't figure out anything from the end part of the story. I won't follow her anymore and I won't believe that she still loved you. Well , it is sure that she is NOT happy in her life now and some sort of UPS  & DOWNS happend so she contacted you. Now, things seemed alright or she felt you won't be there in her life anymore and she disconnected with you.

So much dramas have gone through your love story . It sounds that you might come only 3/4 number guys in her list where as you were her first love and you felt so deep in love with her. It will take still some time to get rid of her and forget her from your mind. But you will be all right when you truly fall in love and get your real soul mate. Next time, love your next 'B' as if you will never get HURT. ... by then you will realize who was 'A' and how least value she had in you life ..!

All I suggest you, ' just forget her and move  on your life , think she has never come in your life ... '
or
Else , If you'r serious and truly love her, Be hero , Go to Nepal, Meet her and Marry her .... she will be all yours  rest of your life ..!That's a true love ..! other wise , it's just waste of your time . you will neither be able to love anyone again nor you will get her .. all you will do is post your story in Sajha and other Sajhaties willl make laugh of you, ' thinking how foolish this guy is'.....

GOOD LUCK !

thanx uncle tom... i know i have been foolish and i know sharing this story some of the numbheads will laugh at me... yah your suggestions and prediction all seem to be the right ones.. i know i wont forget her but that does not mean i can't go ahead in my life. Anyway thanx for your time. I really appreciate that

so the story is not actually end ... i have been reading all ur stories .... yha its true that first love is hard to forget tara u don't need to forget anything ... i do have eX Y Zs in my life ... i never forget any thing cause every time i tried to forget more we remember and hard it becomes when we encounter each other by any medium (email chat ...) so about me .... if i remember my past i don't try to control... just remember those good moment ... be happy... if any eX try to come again in life then remember all what she had done ... tara now no one can come in my life as there is some one sweet/ nice ... in my life ....terobaau .... i want to say again .... there is reason for everything ... so going through all ups and downs u r here now ... be cool ... don't hurt others... if she come online again  then talk ...if she didn't don't get sad too ... don't fall on her again .... broken heart is just like broken mirror ... if its joined also the scratch will still be there and can be clearly seen .... k bhanu aru .... kunai bela mood aayo bhane i will too write my stories ...with  is tragic, love, flirt and finally serious ...

take care,

brave man is that who is never afraid to show his feelings even if whole world is going to laugh at him so you are a brave man

Foolish man is that who repeats the mistake again and again so you are the foolish one too..............

but its nor your fault love makes things liek this

the story brought tears into my eyes and distrust towards the feeling of love.. how can a girl be so mean and manupulative?? but girls are like that and i have seen that..back biting..bitiching and all... hey teroobaau wish i had a boyfriend like you who can love as much as you did to anjali...

wish you were mine

I actually wrote this paper trying to show the skills of narration and description in my English class.To be honest, this was my real story, but some of the vocabularies and the background of the story are modified just to exaggerate or make it more interesting.

I was reading your article, so I just thought why don't I share mine too and then compare and contrast..lol

I actually wrote this paper trying to show the skills of narration and description in my English class.To be honest, this was my real story, but some of the vocabularies and the background of the story are modified just to exaggerate or make it more interesting.

I was reading your article, so I just thought why don't I share mine too and then compare and contrast..lol

                                        

     Once our class teacher asked all of us to write down one thing which they think was the most valuable or expensive thing in the world. We took out scraps of paper from our notebook and jotted down our answers. Almost all of us responded with similar answers like diamonds, golds, or other materialistic items. There was one student whose presence could hardly be felt in the class. He was the last one to turn in the answer and moreover, it was torn on the edges. However, he had a completely different idea. According to him, the most valuable thing in the world was “Time”. It overwhelmed me so much that I did not hesitate to ask his name on that very day. Since then I have been relating the lessons of my life in proportion to time. Not only time makes people happy but also makes them cry. Gradually, I came to realize that time itself is the biggest healer .Time has taught me a short but a sweet moral about a cherished relationship.

    It was in adolescence-a time of storm and stress. I had a virtual friendship with a young girl whom I had never met. There seemed so much time for both of us that we could chat online and even talk on the phone almost everyday. “Hello, How are you?” she said me in her sugary sweet voice on the phone. For some reason, I was mesmerized by her voice. After a pause, “I am good, what about you?” The conversation was promising right from the word go and we were talking as if there was no boundary of stopping. The questions were asked and answered yet there seemed no full stops.

   She was the best talker I had ever been exposed to, at least virtually. She was a whiz on obscure topics like astrology and music history, but she was also well informed about more common topics. Unlike most girls, she was not a chatterbox but very stubborn. She used to stop talking with me until I felt sorry for her although, sometimes, a mistake would hardly be mine.

   Time made us more intimate. “Can we meet each other?” I inquired. “Let me think about it?” she replied. “Sure, why not?”-a text message popped up on my cell phone after an hour. Soon thereafter, we came into a mutual agreement to meet up in the bakery cafe  of Jawlakhel the next day.

   The awaited day for both of us came with a beautiful dawn. I was not nervous but something crept into my mind creating little bit of anxiety. After a quick breakfast, I changed my clothes and headed out. I could see a tall, pretty girl from the distance that looked as if she was desperately waiting for someone. To make sure, I dialed her number hoping she was the one. “Hello, where are you?” she said “I have been waiting for more than five minutes.”

    She was an attractive girl with lips as fresh-picked ripe strawberries and a wave like curl on hair. We spent the day together sharing things as if we had been meeting for a long time. Undoubtedly, that was a day to remember.

   We continued to meet each other frequently. Time made us more intimate Everything was normal until one day when we felt we were made for each other. I though time made my life so beautiful. “Do you know why God created gaps between the fingers?” she asked me. “So that someday the one who is made for you comes and fills those gaps by holding your hands forever.”

 

   Time became cruel. My family had to move out of the country and I had to pursue my higher studies. She was  not a very expressive person but she clinched on my hand tightly and said, “I’ll be waiting for you.” as tiny drops of tears rolled onto her cheeks.

   Time changed everything. I came to another country where I had to restart my life, again and alone. Although I was having trouble with time management, I could find time to keep in touch with her. After a hectic day of work in the Subway restaurant, the first job I ever had, I used to call her somehow although I didn’t own a cell phone at that time. After couple of months, she started to ignore all my e-mails and phone calls. Everytime she was online in MSN, she used to say “Hello” and then the next message would be “ I have to go now”.“I am sorry but I want to forget you,” she replied finally. This infuriated me. However, I insisted on keeping in touch and gave polite responses just to hear her words of encouragement or inspiration. As the days passed, she gave me an indication that she was in another relationship. She was, indeed, in another relationship and wanted to continue our relationship in an other way. “I am so happy. I think I have found my man. You are always my good friend though.” This email summed up all the things she wanted. “I am happy for you but sorry for myself.” I replied.

  Alfred, Lord Tennyson had said thoughtfully, “It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.” It definitely made me feel bad at first but time made me a stronger and better character in myself because I realized along with the time that a relationship is not the heart but just a part of life. When I look back, I allowed someone to disrespect me. Big and small things are sent to challenge life. I did not crumble but picked up the pieces and carried on the best of my ability.Time healed everything, so I grasped that I should not be afraid of many stages of test of character in life and take life as it comes. After all, she had her own right to move on with her life.

 

broken heart is the worst pain you can get in your life because no medicine heals it..there is time but its way too long and things come in along to again make you remind of your pain.... damn i was almost about to forget her and i agian let her in my life and ruined my life..its my fault as much as her..its my weakness...but only one complain after all these things have happened why to leave me in limbo.. she should have told me something before disappearing alike that..now i am all tensed about her ..if good has happened thats good but what if worst has striked her..........................................................

so again its the fault of the girl.. i dun know when these girls are ever going to change.. i fear i might become like them one day

Dude I can feel your pain. Everyone talks about true love but few have seen it. God made few mistakes knowingly while making human beings.

 

Aja valentine day ma yo thread ko yaad aayo...just to refresh the memories i am bring this thread up to the thread line so one who missed this story can read it nice one

read the story for the first time.. very nice....

Don't let somebody else control your life!!!!

Hey man..nice story!

send her this story :)

maybe she will read it and realize somethings?

just a thought.

good luck!

Thanks everyone for appreciating my story. I never thought it would come back again in sajha threads.
Thank you cybro. Though it refreshed the things i was trying hard to forget still these are the memories i will cherish for rest of my life.Power Bro...love makes u do all the stupid things :) so cant really control myself at that moment. And dekchidriver she has realized it after posting this post and contacted me to say sorry. I dont know if this post made her do so or she realized it by herself...she is happy living her life and i am slowly moving on .....

She read this thread and felt compelled to say sorry